Thursday, January 10, 2008 . 7:49 PM
its been a long time since i blog..been bzy wif tennis and hmk..and..ps2?haha..Today was totally..em..combination of sian and ..sad?and..all the negative emotions u can possibly find in the dictionary..
Not e phy rep nemore..considered by others as for the greater good.. Haha..voted out ..lucky leh..out out of erm..12 positions..was it or more..they said they needed it for ppl hu din have achievements and Mrs Tan told me i had alot of achievements no need nemore..Shes a nice person la still tok to me after tt.. though i disappoint her handing up a half complete essay for e test..not tt i wanna attitude or wat..but really not focused and very not prepared..kinda feel like im like some sort of toy hor..i volunteered to be phy rep..and when they feel like it ..juz take it away..
Haha..Like wth..comm'on la..so many other positions and it had to be me..not tt i really want to be it..but..felt like been betrayed or wat backstabbing or watever u call tis to be ok..haha..well..maybe "for it greater good" was juz an xcuse cauz like if it was really liddis..then they shud like ask be4 tt or smt...wait till after like the voting...xcuse mabbe..
Maybe cauz im not tt smart..retain mah..as ppl always say..so read between lines..im dumb and like if i do well probably due to luck cauz they always say same thing retain mah of course do well..haha..well not tt im very defensive bout tis issue but saying it lotsa times is kinda insulting..makes me wonder wat im good at hor..no looks or intelligence or neither am i sports talented or musically inclined ..haha..maybe i was the most worthless among the list or positions and decided to be thrown out?
Maybe to e class im some arrogant and inconsiderate fool and like very dao and attitude problem or selfish or maybe smt else or maybe i look qian da or smt ahahahha..wth..gotten over e issue actually but came back to me once i touch my phy tutorial..haha..nvm..its me taking A lvls and its not a matter of team work or wat..at least got frens like kuanwu and shiukit and gabriel....and erm alicia..?..aha though i find her always against me but shes a pretty nice person..haha
Class?lol..nvm its best i do my own stuff and they do their own..maybe they tot im som1 hu is like always cheerful or joker or somesort of easy pushover..or maybe they detest me or smt really dunot la hor tink so much when i look at e clock again A lvl le..Somehow typing it out here kinda makes me less ermm..sian bout e matter?h
aha..no intelligence , looks , talents makes me somesort of complete loser in e eyes of others..wadeva..
Aha hey no worries like i still got tennis team ppl whom i tink they rock..i noe i have no talent for tennis, juz realize i came in wif no background knowledge or racket sport and tabletennis or tennis itself..tink im the oni person in the team tt is lidat..like some sort of sport "idiot" lol ..i noe my tennis aint tt good but they r still kinda nice to me..but hey..for all i know maybe J1s come in then i get toss somewhere else cauz im not needed like wat happen in class..maybe?lol..come to tink of it ..its amazing how i pass trial tt time..haha..coach himself is a nice person oso...tinking bout tennis makes me realize how sucky am i in tennis..ahha..and ya..quite alot of nice ppl i noe oso like e trio yuting wanjoo and ningjia..and shumin oso..com'on i nvr knew tt the world is round till i met them? Lol honoured anot if any or u read tis..and kinda noe other class ppl like chris hu is some joker..and not bad la..not really a very anti social person..and come to tink of it im kinda low profile in school like no1 noe tt i exist or smt LOL or in other words not popular or duno la my eng suk LOL as usual?
..Sry I really type alot..sry for tis boring post and makes me like a som1 hu is very xiao qi..but hey once awhile ya..u dun see me really down in school rite..always nxt minute and im like some mad person haha..somehow i tink ill get over it...in a way or another..kk for once not very man typing tis ok..haha juz tis incident makes me tink wat ive gone thru tis past few mths haha..now i realise how worthless am i haaha..off to do phy..phy?lol.