Sunday, March 30, 2008 . 10:41 PM

Thanks guys, really appreciate e comments..and no worries im all better le..duno what happen to me on that day oso haha..thanks pplz..!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 . 11:56 PM

Fking pissed now plz do not touch me, 17/40 for chem MCQ .Dam this world cannot set harder izit, Average is like a B can.knn although i noe i nvr study at all y i still feel so fking pissed and dulan?Tmd always listen ppl say wat "im screwed" " gone case " " die le la" then give me wat temporary happiness and end up all getting B at least tmd..im a living defination of screwed gone case or die ok tmd cb la.Lost my chem file like shit can, cant xpress how dulan i am rite now ok. NABEH LA BUISONG LIKE SHIT LA. ya la dumb la fk la cb.Ulimate humiliation , i fking find 1 dam stone to hide till my body freaking rots from head to toe.
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why..? I noe i din do shit but yet now im liddis..?Watery eyes..?omfkinghell..? Thats so not man and im feeling sorry for myself..? fk itz

Sunday, March 23, 2008 . 4:39 PM

I think my life is soo fucked up . Everything isnt going the way i want it to.

Sunday and 2 more papers left and Ive been acting like the whole block test is over.I mean ya like whats the difference if I studied for chem or whatever shit? Chem 4 pages blank and holy by my defination of blank it means BLANK. I din study shit so this is my just desserts. Got la got study actually , 1 day before exam lor.kns

Holy i wish i was born fking smart and don't need to do shit to get good results. Budden again not studying for subjects like chem is a sure die thing unless u got memory of chem stuff carried on from your previous life.

I envy those who are born wif intelligence and looks. This world is unfair.Usually everyone would say , "just accept the way you are." But honestly speaking, does everyone feels that way?
Deep down, i doubt it isnt. The moment you look at those "greater beings" , the feeling just comes.Thoughts of being inferior.Everyone would just say " just study harder". If those smart ass study just as hard as u do, the gap wouldent narrow.I did say in modern days, smart is define as how well u do in exams however, the process of reaching what others define as smart will be tougher.

When u give, don't expect anything in return.So why give?Somtimes I really wonder what kind of a person i really am. Do i give for merits or for personal satisfaction? When you do things for others or show concern or whatever there is, I personally feel that as long as there is appreciation, thats more than enuff.But,sometimes I can't feel it.So i guess i don't work on the basis of "when u give , don't expect anything in return". Budden again, sometimes , it works that way..to some..

I would give a "xz prize award" to anyone who can invent a mind reader or something, I think tt would be darn useful plz.

Ah sorry for this super angry post or wat, i tink after typing all this , i tink i calm down liao..or smt lidat la..

Haii cant get myself to study lor..any1 can teach me anot..hhaiix really screwed lor block test..i really nvr study any shit but i guess i will juz bluff teacher say i got study bah..impression sake.

Tinking back, actually i dun tink a mind reader le.


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Sunday, March 16, 2008 . 11:25 AM

Am really lazy to blog.Yesterday was like out the whole day with jas.2 days before block and enjoying life.So, fail liao LOL.Sorry really lazy to blog bout yesterday, just that it was extremely happening.

Does Newton's 3rd law applies to everything? If you are attracted to someone, it is probably due to love. So love is like a attractive force, but, if u love someone alot, love of A on B might not be equal and opposite of love of B on A. And this is a vector quantity and not scalar like energy whereby opposite means losing energy so opposite determines the direction.However about the direction part, you love the person and maybe the same amount of love is directed at someone else and dosent act on you so it is NOT equal in magnitude also NOT in direction. So nah newton's 3rd law is wrong when it comes to whatever type of love there is and proven by Trox the great. But love works lidat, you feel happy just loving the person wifout being loved back , tts the amazing thing.

Sorry lah , i noe i dam not man toking bout tis can . And wth am i doing typing all these when i shud be tinking bout studying. i shud learn how to focus on more impt things like studying, in other words i need to learn how to priortise DUNO HOW SPELL LOL. I really shud forget bout tis kinda stuff and focus focus focus!

Friday, March 14, 2008 . 1:22 AM

Changed the template to a more simple outlook lol. At least things like "DIARY" are gone for good LOL.

Anyway peoples, Today or i mean yestarday , was my first day studying for block test LOL. I dunno exactly how but i felt like there was erm, HOPE? At least die a glorious death or be proud to say " Hey , I've tried my best?" or maybe " At least i have tried" .

Haha nowadays, how smart you are depends on the results u get. Haha don't really care much even if people percieve me as a dumb loser or watsoever, as long as im able to get my As in 'A' LvL ..thats wat matter most..

But i swear, i will not be able to complete my revision, within tis few days. Sat will be going to NUS open house wif jas so minus 1 day to revise LOL..but hey its worth it !

Neway, i dunt tink it is appropiate to use "revise" cause.. LOL EVERYTHING IS NEW TO ME !

And sry for sounding teacher-ish ok but ..LOL ITS IMPT TO AT LEAST COPY TUTORIALS AND LIKE FILL UP UR LECTURE NOTES..LOL i wanted read up on some topics and its all blank..whats worse..i cant find them LOL..

The dumbest thing ive done today was to like stare at a MAth question..ok tut 12 D.E 2 d) ..and 5 or 4 hrs later..i realize..HEY IM STARING AT E CORRECT ANSWER LOL..

Monday..ahh..the feeling of inexorable doom..

Thursday, March 6, 2008 . 9:19 PM

My desk is like flooded with lecture notes now..haha..I tink its been quite long since i last blog. Really got no time..not that ive been doing my tut..infact for the past 2 week i haven even done a single tutorial.Erm i tink got la, 13a lor haha. Its a miracle how i survive all e lecture test and gotten a B for phy omg i tink its cauz Mark is such a good teacher haha.

Fuck the ants ..im tried being nice by flicking them away..but they juz keep coming.

Neway i tink my fitness is dropping like mad le..haha and napfa is when..2 weeks later oni?? OMG!!

Neway i got a new pair of tennis shoes. Looks nice, in my perspective..budden every1 said it was super plain and ya kinda true cauz its juz black and white but its my fav colours la..neway if u see me playing tennis like a noob, not tt i was not playing like a noob be4, its not surprising cauz like the last time i realy played was a week ago and totally like no passion of tennis le.Its a good thing neway.

I am SOOO going fail block test i swear. Y ppl dun believe when i say i fail, hai, im dumb and the oni way to compensate for it is to like put in hardwork, yet im not doing it. Im at least 4 tutorials behind for each subjects..considering J1 topics are tested..1 week ..u tink im god? LOL

I feel that concentration and focus are dam impt ok..

Recently spending alot time wif jas, kinda feel helpless sometimes..Acid reflux + gastritis if im not wrong..duno how spell..its a torture ok. All i can do was restrict her diet, but i dun tink its enuff. She once said something like it was a torture cauz dun eat fried or oily pain, eat also pain, y not juz eat? So i tried being more flexible, i did, and her gastric started acting up. Guilty u know, like on tuesday, the hiatus between her meals was like 3 hrs + only.Nxt day, gastric till super cham hai.Sorry..

I felt like ive known her lfor a long time but its been only 2 weeks + i guess and a few daes oni since we got tgh..Its a good thing i guess haha.

I guess im a very simple person, Small gestures or actions are enuff to make me happy le.

• Getting dragged around
• Recieving a call
• receiving a sms
• spending common breaks tgh

Somehow as long as im feel wanted by her, tts more than enuff to make me happy le.Its complicating how simple i am, ironical.

Choosing healthy food is fun LOL.

Hopes she get well soon