Sunday, March 23, 2008 . 4:39 PM
I think my life is soo fucked up . Everything isnt going the way i want it to.Sunday and 2 more papers left and Ive been acting like the whole block test is over.I mean ya like whats the difference if I studied for chem or whatever shit? Chem 4 pages blank and holy by my defination of blank it means BLANK. I din study shit so this is my just desserts. Got la got study actually , 1 day before exam lor.kns
Holy i wish i was born fking smart and don't need to do shit to get good results. Budden again not studying for subjects like chem is a sure die thing unless u got memory of chem stuff carried on from your previous life.
I envy those who are born wif intelligence and looks. This world is unfair.Usually everyone would say , "just accept the way you are." But honestly speaking, does everyone feels that way?
Deep down, i doubt it isnt. The moment you look at those "greater beings" , the feeling just comes.Thoughts of being inferior.Everyone would just say " just study harder". If those smart ass study just as hard as u do, the gap wouldent narrow.I did say in modern days, smart is define as how well u do in exams however, the process of reaching what others define as smart will be tougher.
When u give, don't expect anything in return.So why give?Somtimes I really wonder what kind of a person i really am. Do i give for merits or for personal satisfaction? When you do things for others or show concern or whatever there is, I personally feel that as long as there is appreciation, thats more than enuff.But,sometimes I can't feel it.So i guess i don't work on the basis of "when u give , don't expect anything in return". Budden again, sometimes , it works that way..to some..
I would give a "xz prize award" to anyone who can invent a mind reader or something, I think tt would be darn useful plz.
Ah sorry for this super angry post or wat, i tink after typing all this , i tink i calm down liao..or smt lidat la..
Haii cant get myself to study lor..any1 can teach me anot..hhaiix really screwed lor block test..i really nvr study any shit but i guess i will juz bluff teacher say i got study bah..impression sake.
Tinking back, actually i dun tink a mind reader le.
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